Was there ever a point in your life when you felt the God has turned His back on you?
I’ve been through storms in my life that seem never-ending. I was always filled with worries and fears. I always wonder where God is. When I was in pain, I seek out for God. But was He ever listening? Has He forgotten about me? Why won’t He come to rescue me? Has He turned His back on me? For a moment, I have forgotten the many promises of God and began to dwell on the worst things that can happen.
During one of my prayers I asked Him, “Lord, have You turned Your back on me?” In the silence of my heart I heard He answered, “Yes, Ivy”. I was surprised! But even before I ask “Why, Lord?”, He continued, “I’ve turned My back not because I’ve forgotten about you, for you were never out of my mind. I’ve turned my back not because I no longer care, for My love for you is more than you can imagine. I’ve turned My back not because I’m ignoring you, for I am always listening. I’ve turned My back not because I’m leaving you, for I am always with you regardless of your circumstance. But I have turned My back on you, My precious Ivy, to vanquish the enemy that was sneaking up from behind.”
Yes, God’s love is always with me…even in my darkest moments. God’s love is over me, under me, within me and all around me. Even at times I don’t sense His love, His love is still with me. Even when I think I can handle things on my own, He is with me knowing that time will come when I will get tired and will need Him more than ever.
Even if I let my sin come between us, He will not forsake me. Even if I cannot always express my love for Him, His love for me remains. Even if I have spots and blemishes of my sins, He still accepts me. Even if i don’t give Him all the honor and praises that He deserves, He still loves me despite of my selfishness. Even if my words are weak when I pray, He is able to read through my heart. Because He loves me and His love for me is always with me.
May God be Priased!